The Third Pig Got the House Right! Third Times the Charm? In This Case, I hope the 6th is Atleast...

Your woman is your home.

So many homes seem to be made a straw right now...

The GREATEST Love....

Love someone for what they STAND FOR. Thats is the GREATEST type of love you can have. Wait till you get to the bed... you'll see ;) haha =P

- Joey JcM

View Point

You can live thinking about how much older you are from yesterday, or knowing how much younger you are from tomorrow.

- Joey JcM

If Everyone Goes One Way, Perfect Time to see What the Advantages are of the Other Way

When everyone wants to be a different person, don't you think you should realize it's time to be you? And take advantage of the uniqueness only YOU can bring to this world? Do this, and get a head start on everyone else who's being fools, so, when your 40 you'll feel good..... instead of going through a midlife crisis.

When You Arrive?

If you "make it big" you don't become something else, you simply show them what you always were! EDUCATE 'EM! ;)

- Joey JcM

Hold Back to Deform Myself for YOU? I Don't Think So

Our generation was told to shut our months. Hold in all you have inside, and therefore deform yourself.

I refuse to do this. Sorry all you abusive babyboomer fucks.

- Joey JcM

Something's Missing......

Tonight I think about girls who were in my life, that I have made a connection with.

I just can't believe, the true story is that all of those girls were taken away by either jealous ex-boyfriends, jealous friends.

There was about .... 3 girls, or maybe 4 that I actually had something different with. Something nice, and awesome. And the one.... the one who took my heart, and never bothered to give it back.

I sit here and think... I have no girl to share things with. I question now wether I even want one. I'm doing really good without anyone right now.

Have I went so high, that I might not ever be able to love again? Or have I been so destroyed....?

All of these girls came to me, and told me SUCH beautiful things. Things that you would think would have two people NEVER stop talking. The closeness, the understanding of eachother. The attraction. And now all of these girls are COMPLETELY out of my life......

I just wish I knew, if they listened to the jealous people because they are really miserable themselves? And that is there TRUE company? And I was done a favor by those girls getting out of my life. ... or, .... or.. I don't even know! lol

All the females I have made a connection with have the same pattern with me:
- We meet
- We have these certain eyes for eachother, and feel eachother deep inside.
- There's a high point where memory that will never be forgotten are created.
- ... and then, all of a sudden, the jealous people get them, and I find them telling me the COMPLETE OPPOSITE of what they spilled out of their hearts before.

And in the end, the never want to talk to me again....

I can tell though, when we were with eachother, the girls were SO free and happy. How do I know this? Well.... they told me things that they never told anyone else before, and you can just tell in their smiles. They would come to me and pour their hearts out, about how they felt about us, about how they felt about things around them. They would come to me for help. Make the effort to tell me how much they missed me.
They were actually with a guy who cared for them, knew how to have fun with them, and was passionate for them. I'm sure there's more.

But then I think... was I just a rebound for all these girls? Did they just want a taste of real life, and a relationship where they were actually treated right? Just to feel good for alittle while, so they can say "atleast I did it" or something?
I mean, how can they be with me, and just leave me COMPLETLY! And some of the reasons for it... it was like they were LOOKING for anything to get out all of a sudden.
No smothering though, no hate, just POOF! GONE!

It could be just where I live or something... BUuuuutt.. it's just a shame how I built these skyscrapers with those girls, and now they're knocked down. Why would you do that? Why would you try to get rid of someone that you were so comfortible with, someone that gave you so many smiles and memories.

How can I be sitting here, and have no one I care about to talk to ?

Everyone seems to be giving up on their dreams.... but, thats a WHOLE other blog.

I just wanna be close with someone who looks at me and gets me. Thats all you need in this world. 2 girls were VERY special to me. There was only 2 girls that actually got me thinking I would marry them, but it looks like they're gone for good.
If it's not them theirselves ignoring me, it's they're friends trying to create storys to try to make them stay away from me.

Why did they choose these jealous people over me? Are they really destructive themselves? Or were they just not strong enough to do what they wanted to do?

Either way.... I have no one around me that is filled with the spirit to make me happy. They have either lost there soul, or have gotten lost themselves.

But I continue to not give up. I don't think it's possible for me to stop dreaming. Thats what I love about myself, and i'm proud to stand for that as a symbol.

I just wish I had someone to share it with.......

- Joey JcM

Making a "Deal With The Devil"? Nah... Tell "Him" to go F$@& HIMSELF!

Some people might tell you "Once you go down the dark path, forever it will consume you" or "Once you make the deal with the devil, there's no coming back".

Some people though, do not know what this means. They ignore this advice because they think that they won't get sucked into anything, because they're too smart. It doesn't matter how much you think you have, because THIS is how it goes, THIS is what it's about:

When you make a deal with the devil, the first deal is to get you into a position where your giving, and are promised more back.

After the first deal, you spend all your time trying to get back what was stolen from you, but each deal MORe gets stolen from you. So there you go, one your blinded with anger, and want your "shyt" back. Wether it's a possession, or a piece of your soul.

Soon, your chasing after almost everything that you had, or were. It will forever consume you because it takes everything you had from you: People, your cherishables. It takes everything that made you YOU. then one day you wake up, and you have nothing but the devil. One day you see that you can't survive without him, because "he's" all you got.

And most people at that point don't have the will to take the LOooong road back to recovery....

So realize, that "going down the dark path", or "making a deal with the devil" this is you getting involved with someone who is just a SMART miserable person, who knows HOW to make you it's company (misery loves company). Rather then someone who is just out loud about causing misery.

So before you "make a deal with the devil" ask your self: "Am I that much of a pussy, to have someone be wiping me in the a$$ the rest of my life?"

Tell the "devil" to go FUK itself, and tell him YOUR in control bytch!

- Joey JcM

"I'm Not Afraid, to Take a Stand" - Against My Own Generation...

Something i've noticed about my generation.

I always had SO MUCH faith in my generation. I feel that everyone that was born in 1986 was blessed with so much talent, and love to really make it shine. Hell, we grew up with fukking Ninja Turtles and GI Joe? HOW COULD WE NOT!?!!

Somewhere along the line though, people from my generation started to do the COMPLETE opposite of the ability's that they grew up doing. Instead of mastering their crafts, they chose to give up, and follow people who don't want to do anything.

Why is this?
On the way home today, I was thinking about it, and this hit me...

Now, this could be just an epidemic where I live, but here's the deal....
It seems that my generation grew up very abused. Mentally if not psysically. Mostly ALL of my friends parents are divorced, and have dead beat fathers. Not all, but A LOT MORE then you would think. We were lucky enough to grow up in a beautiful, spirited area none the less.
It seems that people of my age where not allowed to do a lot of things though, and were very sheltered. But also with not being allowed to do anything, came the fact that we were babied as well.
The parents of my generation seem to LOVE to force their kids into living the lives THEY never got to live.

The babyboom generation... more like just the BABY generation. They didn't even have to graduate high school to have a decent life, but always complaining. But thats another story. I hate to say it that way though, because the people from the baby boom generation that ARE cool, are AMAZING. But....

What happens when you have a people that are forced to believe they are nothing by BABY boom parents, but are also babied? You have people now, of my age, that WANT to do nothing, but want everything for it. Seems like my generation was rewarded for being a loser. It only makes sense.

It seems like I am a rarity when it comes to actually wanting to become successful. No one takes their talents seriously, and the only sense it makes, is that it comes from parents who FORCED they're children to hate what they're good at.

Me. I told my parents to go FUK themselves. My father was pretty abusive too. Not in a drunk, doesn't know what he's doing type way, but in a jealous tried to stop me from doing everything that made me happy way. Some fukked up in the head shyt, I know.
I mean it's a hard spot. Parents that made their kids feel like they're nothing, so they had the advantage, and control over them all their lives. And when people ALREADY feel alone, how can they find the will to tell their parents to go "f" themselves? It's very terrifying, but I did it.
I did it for the good of my future, and to save myself, and them from their own blindness. Gave them the only hit that can make them open their eyes. Cause when it comes down to it, if you upset, your fukking upset. There's no if, and, or BUTs about it!!

I always felt like I could do more in my growing up years. I was always so tired and out of it... I always felt like shyt.
Fast forward alittle bit to losing to love of my life because of how depressed I was... FINALLY broke me. After that, thats when I realized, it's all or nothing. She was everything to me at the time, but after she disappeared on me, I was absolutely DESTROYED. DESTROYED!! It was then that I realized, I don't care who wants to do what to me, it's time to unleash.

Fast forward alittle more, now I'm in the Screen Actors Guild. I had to work terrible jobs that had you working from 6am to almost 24 hours. But I saved the money, got screwed over a lot, and then I finally made it, in a matter of 3 years. You'd be surprised how far you can get with some class, heart and spirit, in such a short amount of time.

Not only did I have to deal with my stepfather ruining my home, and what it stould for, I had to deal with my father trying to destroy everything that I myself stould for: Smiles, laughs, fun, life, accomplishment. It's hard to get what you need done in a situation like that, the hate can easily blind you. But whet kept me alive was that I said "He's the one thats going to die alone". You might say thats horrible, but it was justice at the time. Extreme times call for extreme measures. Except it.
I went through hell... literally. It was bad, but now i'm officially on the rise to the top. WHY? Because I REFUSE to let depression in general plague me, or my family, and the ones I care about. It is out American right to follow our pursuit of happyness! So I chose to fight against whatever was holding me and my family down. As all great people have done in the past that have changed the game.

Don't let anyone depress you to the point where you just give up, marry someone you hate, and have a terrible job that has you just waiting for your retirement.
Like I said, this might just be at large where I grew up, but if you are out there, and are affected by this too, just know, do not let ANYONE... I don't care if it's friends, family, your parents, depress you.
If you had demons passed on to you, you must end the cycle. Put it to rest. WHY? Because your going to let someone hold you down, JUST because THEY'RE afraid to take a step, so you have to be afraid too? So THEY can continue to be a pussy all their life? Because they prob KNOW, if YOU STAND UP, they're going to have to eventually too.... WELL TOO FUKKING BAD!

Realize, that you have the power to be the one that your grandchildren tell legends about. Just like I tell about my grandfather.

- Joey JcM

5+5=20? I DoOOn't THINK SOooo.... Get It Right, and One Life Can Change Many!

It's funny when someone who once told you they loved you, now shuns you and calls you an a$$whole, when the people they hang around are people who are always advertising negative. The ones that CALL people a$$ wholes, are the ones telling ME i'm an a$$whole? HA! Thats just like... I wonder if these people hear themselves.

Never the less, this is not directed twards trashy friends I have lost, this is really directed towards someone I once cared about with my whole life, and the people in their world.

I gave the love, and their friends gave the hate. The HATE wins? Sheesh... I'd hate to be the person that gave up on love, and gave up on their OWN LIVES to follow that! Actually, I really feel bad for the kids that they have later on in life, because they're the ones who are going to have to suffer, for the mother or father who chose to follow people who could care less about them.
Those demands they have created will be passed on to their children.

If your dying inside, prevent this. Clean up your life. Receiving one simple "congratulations" is better then trying to get someones attention in vein your whole life. Trust me, I've had those people in my life at one point. Bad choice. But what counts is that I cleaned up the sludge, got the car out of the mud for the purpose of moving forward and advancing.

Do this for you. Do this for you future, do this for your legacy.

- Joey JcM

The Importance of a Healthy Mind

The mind controls what business goes on with your body. Your mind can't exist without your body to keep it alive and warm.

Get your head screwed on straight.

- Joey JcM

Under Developed Adults

People that war after a certain age, are people who's brains never developed passed infancy.

These people might try to make you think they're big and scary, but anyone who try's to do that really is just a "big baby". Don't be scared of them. The mind has less limits then the body, and can be more powerful. All's you have to know is, to defeat a "baby", just simply take it's "Ba Ba" away.

As long as it has nothing to do with your world, just sit back and let the idiots fight. Pull up a chair and some popcorn, and enjoy the show. Let the garbage dispose of each other.

- Joey JcM