I'm at the point now, where it's do awesome things, or DIE!
I feel like I always matured faster then my peers. I think it's possibly because of the hardships I've faced when I was a child. So when I'm here, they're all the way back there. And then when they age alittle more, I see that they're going through what I went through ATLEAST 3 years before.
Either way, all my "friends" like to put me down. From the Bullshyt they tell me, I feel like they don't understand the concept of - a good team is made up of unique individuals, each contributing to their different talents. Working together, they form one machine that has multiple talents.
My passion is just to produce all of the ideas I have in my head. They're fun, memorable, and I feel that they are actually worth something. Everyone should feel like what they have in side is worth something, but most just conform and then go complain on facebook, like it's everyone else's fault.
"In your darkest hour, you will always be able to find light. The light inside. And the only person that can exstinguish THAT.... is you"
- Joey JcM
You must understand, that the difference in the people that "make it", and the ones that don't is simple: its the ones that choose to do vs. the ones that just DON't. The ones that "DO", make it, and the ones that don't, are mad at themselves, but then try to go spread misery on facebook, in a real cowardly way. They try to bring everyone down to their level, and try to make the majority kick their own a$$es so they don't look alone in doing so.
I've had people tell me "You direct edit and produce, and it's not fair". Or atleast that what I heard through the grape vine. These people would never say things to my face. OBviously, not a quility of a good friend, but I was just so passionate about making videos, and they were too. The details in costume desgins that they did for themselves and such. Such a shame that great thing have to be spoiled by GREAT immaturity. They must see something in immaturity and misery that I don't I guess.... Well, I guess it's because it's not comfortible to live with something on your face all of the time. A blind fold.
The thing is, I went to SCHOOL for movie making! If they had ideas, I would try to implement them in the right way, all with completely good intentions. Why the hell would I want to be an A$$whole and mess up MY PASSION? Oyy.... Not ripping apart what they wanted to do, but simply I would suggest things like this - "Why don't we make a preview episode, get people excited, while we're working on the other ones! "It's soo good, lets try to get something out now! 8D" They were so blinded though, that me saying this was perceived as "I'm not doing what they want to do, and I want all the attention". I guess they would just throw something out there, and not really care what people think, and even care if people they were going to be entertaining were going to like it or not. I USED to be like that when I was REALLY young, then I went to school and learned how to do it the right way.
Then I have another "friend" who has helped me out a lot too, but constantly tries talks about heroes, but he speaks like an anti hero. The thing is, he tries to say that these "heroes" would agree with what he's saying. Maybe he has a distorted view, and he really worships bad guys, but for some reason can't tell the difference? lol He'll preach the Metal Gear 4 quote "Do not try to change the word, but except it for what it is" but then he goes around telling people they're a$$wholes for not playing certain video games. If you like something that he doesn't, he'll ruin your day by sending you all these "facts" from who knows where. If you don't agree or believe in these facts, he has even MORE negative things to say about you.
It's basically like - a kid believing in Santa Clause, and then him sending the kid all these photos of the north pole or ANYTHING to try to convince the child that Santa Clause is not there, attempting to ruin the kids beliefs AT ANY COST! Terrible... Fukking Abysmoly terrible. Inhumanly terrible... sheesh.
I would love to feature other people in my videos, because I believe they might fit the look of a character and actually WOUld do a good job if they applied themselves. But then simply I don't want them there. They would most likly not cooperate, because if they're given a lead, they let it go to their head, and think it's an opportunity to be in control, rather then doing their job. Thats something i've learned from experience with these certain people. We should be making entertainment like only we would be able to do. If you wanted to apply for a public service announcement video and preach, you applied for the wrong job.
I mean when I did a lot of my videos, people were very passionate and helpful, but at the same time, I always felt like I had to watch my back. Even though it was awesome to see everyone dressed up, the process wasn't necessarily fun.
I have all these ideas in my head, but I have to feel like if I share them,people are going to be too busy PREACHINg to care. What do you want to record? Two people making fun of eachother for 10 minutes... go a head. Then who are you going to act nice to, in order to try to get my help? In the words of STONE COLD STEVE AUSTIN "EHHH EHH!!!" (as in no, lolol)
In the end, I had to get rid of a lot of people. It wasn't worth it to sell my soul to make a video, because thats not the right way to do it, because You really won't be doing YOUR project, it will be THEIRs, for them to ruin at will. And have to edited a video feeling like a slave, not even making want to touch the mouse. Besides, why would I want to edit a video of people who I feel at any moment are going to stab me in the back?
Alls I wish for is a group of people like Mega 64. They constantly make videos. Each member of the group knows their role, there for, they can execute what each person does to the fullest. They're all about their cause, not about who gets the most screen time. I envy them... I feel a long time ago, in a galaxy far far away that I had this. When I was little, we had a group of friends who understood eachother in this way. We all knew our roles, but did what WE can do to the fullest, and just did awesome things. Person problems in my life lead us to not be able to get together as much later on. It's funny, how those people weren't into drugs when we were all together, and then it all came crashing down. Then they started preaching as well.
When I was around, I brought everyone together. I am full of love and heart, it's not that surprising. And I'm not afraid to say that in the way I do, because I say it as a challenge! For other people to step up, and be all that they can be!
Now a days, I feel like everyones just wasting away, and wasting their time preaching all this god dam BULLSHYT. Or being slaves to people who want to do nothing but preach. Everyone is giving up on their dreams. I don't wanna hear "thats growing up". When were all able to get together all the time, we did great things. And then what happened happened. That was long ago, and now the same thing is happening now. It's not the age, or when, it's the situation. Personal problems in my life prevent me from gathering the people I need to to create something great, Something to remember, and Something to have them say "Wow, we did something. Something that left a mark on their hearts and souls. Bot some BS they're forget nest week."
Things are crumbling around me (as far as personal projects), while my real career is progessing though. So I can't really complain, but my editing computer is DONE (thanks to Windows Vista). And I have SOoo many projects that I was working on, and so many ideas to execute! But I am at a dead halt.... My fellow Jedi who fell, and turned sith probably LOVE this. They're probably saying the "DEMOND JOE MUNAFO IS DEFEATED" Well, to those fellow idiots, enjoy your time. Because when I DO return, your going to want to "friend request" me again, but won't because you'll know now that YOU look stupid, if you havn't already noticed.
The people I was dealing with fell, because they listened to immature people, and they chose controversy over creating something good for others. Not my group of people anyway, but I just feel really sorry for them. Some were so funny, some had that passion in their eyes. So much potential, but I guess for some, the brain just stops progressing. To waste that talent is a sin, but I guess some people put on "the costume" just for the attention. And since they couldn't be leader, they chose to create controversy to keep the attention flow coming.
All this is fine, but I just pray for a situation of people who are open minded, and who are always down to film in any situation. I believe my friends have this, but I cannot say i'm completely confident, and that is not a good thing, as it is leading down the same uncomfortable road that I've delt with before. Alls I ask from them is too believe. Thats all they need. But I don't believe they have this ability anymore, or are bleeding it... and fast =/
But I will rebuild no matter what. And I will continue to make videos, art, music, even if I have to do each part by myself.
If you have read all of this, your time is greatly appreciated. Pray for me, Everything I do, I do for you.
- Joey JcM